In the train, watching the cloudy skies and finally just being, with vague thoughts, distant memories and no regrets or worries. Listening to the most beautiful sound in the world, the ethereal sound of the train weals on the railways, when the train moves very slowly and dreamily through forests and by the Danube.
I only have these blurry phone photos, but it’s ok. In Bucharest, together with friends that I meet once in a few years, but with whom we find each other with the same easiness and affection and closeness each time, I saw the sunset glowing on the communist architecture, as eerie as a metaphysical painting. I didn’t take any picture, except for the ones in my memory.
It’s hard to find the tone to write here (or in other places on the internet) with everything that goes on in the world. It’s also hard in the day to day life to find the balance between anger and hopelessness for the state of the world and gratefulness for my own life, that is still safe and full of things to be joyful for…
Meanwhile, it’s almost spring here. I love February and this feeling that was there with me all my life of anxious expectation of something unnamed, of nostalgia for that unknown, ethereal thing that never happens…
I’m not sorry to see 2016 go, as I’m sure many people around the globe feel. So scary and so heartbreaking many times…
But for me personally many good things happened too, as much as it is possible to separate the general atmosphere of doom in the world from my own life. I had a productive year, I took some decisions that may create a safer future for me (still very uncertain that this will be the outcome, but at least I do my part), I took care of my health, I cultivated my friendships. Cici came into our family this year and our 3 dogs get along really nicely. Tonight, we will have our first New Years Eve with her :).
So, for 2017, I thought about a few simple goals (like read and write more, learn to sew, learn some embroidery techniques, use our DSLR more). But mainly I plan to stay grateful for my sheltered life, for being surrounded by human and non-human loved ones, for being able to do work that I feel it’s meaningful and fulfilling (most of the time). Worry less, do more.
It’s my blog anniversary today. I still enjoy posting here even if I don’t manage to do it so often.
These weird Christmas cards are from my childhood collection, from the eighties. The faceless Santa is really creepy and I also think the faceless child in the left is nice, too :).
I clearly remember the pink fluffy doll the child holds in the second card. I didn’t have one like it but many of my friends did. I also appreciate the very typical carpet in socialist homes and how the card was badly printed, with a lighter stripe in the left. So funny and also so nostalgic.
We have a peaceful day, it’s snowing outside, we have lots of delicious vegan food and the dogs are really happy that we are all at home.
I was thinking today (while I have a free day and most of my to do list items for the next days are ticked off already but I still can’t really just enjoy the moment and not worry) that my most important goal for 2017 is to relax. Learn how to stop my mind, stop thinking of all the things that I could/should do and just be. I used to be good at that.
This is a new embroidery I have started, using a beautiful knitted lace an unknown woman made many years ago.
Finally some (almost) free days. It feels like winter and we are planning to make some decorations for the house.
These pigeons were spending time outside our bathroom window.