I didn’t use this space for such a long time, but in empty days like today it feels good to speak into the void of the internet.
2018 was a very mixed year for me, with an important professional achievement, with new and deepened friendships, but also, on a different level, with new nuances of worry and self-doubt.
But anyway, drawing almost every day in 2018, even if only a few lines, was one of the best things I have done for myself. Drawing without any plan, without any purpose, just putting onto page the images of the streets I walk by. I’ll definitely continue this in 2019.
After a very busy, stressful and complicated summer (but a summer that turned out to be an important one, with a very good outcome), I plan to really enjoy this autumn. It’s my favorite season, when everything seems to start anew.
So, in order to get back to writing in this space that I neglected for so long, I thought to make a list of my plans for this fall.
-I started practicing calligraphy this summer. I’m not at all good at it, but I enjoy it a lot. It’s so interesting to observ what a different quality time has when you slow down motions that usually are fast and routine. It’s so meditative and calming to watch how your hand draws very slowly every letter.
-I plan on making a junk journal and also print out some everyday photos from my phone to put in it. I’m still collecting different papers for it.
-I want to take more walks in my neighborhood and in the city this fall and finish at least one roll of film, and also take some instax photos, too.
-I also want to practise sewing some more (maybe make a shirt or a dress).
-And, I also plan to post here again more regularly and to record snippets of my days and things I make.
…in our urban garden.
I was soooo busy these last months and I will still be, but this long weekend is all about resting and relaxing.
Some mornings, on my way to school, the sky is full of crows. The forest is nearby. I love this view, it’s one of my favorite things.
These days are strange to me, with so much hope and so much doubt in them. Also with a strange connection to my nineteeen year old self, realising that some long forgotten aspects of my psychology stayed the same. I have been before in a similar situation, facing an important exam in which many things are up to me and in many aspects I just need to hope for the best. The outcome was good last time.
Meanwhile, I try not to get overwhelmed, rest and relax and prepare myself to think that my life is good and safe and full of love, no matter what.
My friend Aniko sent me in a letter this beautiful old button. I put it on a chain and I never took it off since I received it.
I really like this time of the year, when tomorrow everything starts anew. I want in 2018 to continue to nurture and grow my friendships and try to hope more and worry less.
Happy New Year!